Survive.

I am thankful to have survived another week at work. I think the pressure got into me that each day I spent in the office seems like a cliffhanger. Hay, I hope I get to redeem myself back after a traumatic work environment in my previous job. I pray for better days moving forward.

Anyways, I just had a chat with my future nephew-in law about their (with my niece) visit to Singapore. We're so excited! So I've got a reason to get back to shape and lose some fats hehe. I've been pigging out like crazy after the wedding. Now I have a new motivation, so I'm giving myself three months to lose some weight. Better yet, 3 months is too long? hahaha.

Loving weekend!

Lost in 15mins.

OMG, what have I done? Errrr! I felt so terrible. I have completely disappointed myself from training. First half of the day in the office yesterday was pretty much ok. But right after having a Bah Kuh Teh for lunch, I was caught off guard by my trainer when he said we'll do a mock call.

Ack! I sucked and didn't give justice to what I had learned in 2 weeks. Haay, I can't understand what happened to me. Though the thoughts are in my head, that 15mins window to try was purely unacceptable to fail. I lost focus, maybe because subconsciously I was thinking it's almost weekend. Hay (long deep sigh)

But on a positive note, I am glad that I saw the errors while in the mock call rather than have those during a real call. I would have been killed on the spot when it did happen. It was indeed a wake-up call for me to NOT do what I just did. Good on me, whew! Now I'm spending my weekend doing my own version of mock call.

True what they say, there's never a strong person really. The world is round. Sometimes you're up and sometimes you're down. I guess I was obviously down and will surely have my time up :)

Outburst.

My heart is pounding so fast. I had already put off the lights and shut down my notebook but I just can't get myself to sleep. Yes, I am bothered. There is an irrelevant and senseless person that is really getting into my nerves. And if I don't spill this outburst of emotion, I might not be able to compose myself and ends up doing something stupid.

It's frustrating that this person is even a man, for goodness sake! Yet, he babbles a lot. Yeah, very immature and unmanly. I am so pissed! He over-analyzes things and makes bitter comments about others. I think he could be a good actor, playing two different characters. One, nice while having the conversation then later changes skin and gives his annoying and arrogant comments. Urgh! I just hate his guts! Makes me wanna puke. I don't know what the hell is his problem but he's really out of line most of the time. And now people are starting to hate him. Haay, feels like he has his own climate change haha! Funny that a common friend mentioned that he may be "threatened" by me. Seriously? That's real crap! I thought competition is only for girls? Gosh, he is completely a rare gem! Rare that I wish I could lock him up in a room full of mirrors so he can have the time alone to see himself, right before back-stabbing people.

I feel sorry for myself for writing this or even the feeling of it. But I'm just human, feeling hurt. I hate people who show different faces, those who are not genuinely true. It's disappointing because I thought he's worth my respect. Sadly, I'm wrong.

Dude, why can't you just keep it real?