Thank you...

Lord, it has been days that I'd been feeling very wary and sad. But during those times, I never thought of giving up my faith in you because I know that You will never forsake me. I know that you work things according to your plan. And I take each challenge as a milestone to make our relationship more founded. And today, you healed my wariness instantly. You worked your magic flawlessly. I cannot fathom the happiness I have right now because of the wonders you make in my life, like what you always do. You give me big surprises, bigger than I can imagine.

But I am not forgetting that fact that I am one of your sinful children. I am sorry for adding so much burden to what you already have. But no matter how sinful I could be, I am certain that you still love me unconditionally. My heartfelt gratitude...Love You!

Hate mail

I've never written a hate mail ever...

"You, I may not be as smart as you would have expected me to be. But I sure am not stupid either. At first I thought something was really wrong with me. That maybe you were right, I am stupid the way you see me. But as days and months passed, my theory changed. I realized it was not only me who was in pain. There are also other people who felt the excruciating experience I had with you. Ironic but I'm glad, that they felt it too. Those unprofessional, uncalled and selfish comments you had for us was truly degrading. You ripped off all our confidence. You belittle us so much like you are the only person who thinks right. I am upset, so upset that I reserve no respect for you. I know someday you will pay off everything you have done to us and I strongly believe in karma. I feel sorry for you for your lack of skills to handle people. I pray that someday you will realize what you are losing...people dedicated to work but demoralized by you."

Mouse play

It is really more relaxed and peaceful to work without the bosses around. No nagging and loud voices heard. Haay, it is indeed a soothing Monday for everyone at work hehehe.

Stress overload...

Since this month started, the butterflies in my stomach never left. It seems like my level of stress has gone way high beyond my reach. Work and wedding pressure is everywhere, in my mind and even in my dreams. I guess there's no need to do physical workout to tone my body. The mental stress alone keeps me fit. Arrrgggh! I just wanna scream it out. Hope things will go well, in God's time.

Getting closer

I'm starting to count the days I have left at work. Though counting makes it a little slower. Somehow, a part of me wants to stay but a bigger part of me wants to be completely free. It's the feeling of freedom that emanates more. I believe I deserve a good break after 2 years of hard labor. Hard enough to say that it is really darn tough to be under the supervision of a different nationality. Sometimes, we really cannot avoid criticism or racial discrimination because of which country I am from. And it is impossible to educate every single person that I meet in and outside of work to explain and defend how talented we could be in our own ways. My experience was just harder than I thought.

I am so tempted to go back home and settle for while because I feel like I've had enough of it. But the "challenged" part in me wants to face this head-on. I wish everything goes well.

Sick and sicker

I had gone back to Singapore and I am still sick. I'm feeling sicker everyday for which I don't know the reason. Prolly stress with work and wedding stuffs. Well I'd prefer to be sick and sicker now than be sick on my big day. I hope to get better real soon.

By the way, I didn't realize how the time flies so fast. I forgot to greet myself a happy 2nd birthday in Singapore. I turned 2 years old a few days back. Hmm, a lot has happened to me and around me in that span of 2 years. I hope for more years to celebrate here in Singapore. I love it here!

Wed Preps Phase III

A week after my birthday, Archie and I were off to Philippines to prepare for our wedding requirements. I have to say, it was the saddest vacation ever. We didn't get to enjoy because of typhoon Pepeng. It got us stranded in Baguio. Good thing we finished all the things needed to be done for our wedding preps. Although my other plans such as visiting friends in Manila as well as our outdoor photo shoot was canceled. But then again, overall I was happy that my wedding checklist was completed before Pepeng started to hit.

• Food Tasting

• Reception Layout

• Flowers

• Family Planning Seminar

• Bridal shop

• Bridal Car

• Emcee

• Pre-Nup photos

• Invitations - completely unexpected packaging. We had to re-do the sleeve to look more "alive".

True enough, it is difficult to be a coordinator on your own wedding. But it's perfectly fine with me, atleast I know every detail of it. I hope we can pull it off successfully. I expect some humps but hopes for the minor issues.

Mackee was born on my bday...

After my incessant debate with Archie on buying laptop, here it is! Right on my birthday, we got our baby Mackee. It was indeed memorable to celebrate hehe. Memorable in the sense that, it's my last single birthday and I got our Mackee.



But the horrible part of that same day...back home in the Philippines, typhoon Ondoy tremendously put the lives of my countrymen in misery and deep danger. It was saddening to watch the news with so many lives taken :( Mother Nature took it's toll. And for that, I wanna extend my sympathy to all the families that had been affected even in the smallest way I can. Let's all pray for a speedy recovery of the Philippines.

Laptop Market

We've been contemplating for sometime if it is time to buy a new laptop. Actually, we planned to buy a new one on December but because our baby died on us 3 months earlier, we gotta do something. All of our wedding suppliers are contacted online so we really need to get in touch with them. The problem is, we don't have the luxury to pay for one now due to other financial priorities. This matter is something that needs to be discussed seriously ... I'll update you soon.

Love Fridays

I just love Fridays! Still no laptop huhu...

Virtual World doomed

It was like doomsday when our laptop hdd crashed last Sunday. Archie tried to revive but alas, it was really gone. Gone without backing up our files huhuhu. And it's very difficult to be updated on the in's and out's of the limelight without it. I felt crippled...sigh!

A month away...

It's a month away from my trip back home. Finally, after the long wait and planning, I'll see our wedding suppliers to discuss in details the things that needs to be done. See you guys soon...