July 11, 2008

Not-So-Happy-Friday. I usually feel happy when it's Friday. But my excitement today suddenly turned sour. This is all because of a less significant person who is trying to steal the limelight from everyone.

For some reason, I don't know why all of a sudden I feel a silent rift somewhere. I can't fully measure the severity because I am not directly involved. But I'm beginning to dislike the outcome because everyone is starting to feel affected. I am affected. My work, too.

I've been working for a long time and I know for a fact that we can never please everyone, not even in our own family. Unlikely, someone is wanting me to fail. Someone is trying to pull me down just like what this someone is struggling to do to another person.

I'd like to know what I have done. Am I seen as an accomplice? Look, if you hate the person I talk and laugh with, don't hate me too. Because first, we don't think the same thing. Second, I just keep my cool and do my own stuffs. Third, I'm not your puppet. Come on, you wanna be a leader? Show me that you deserve to be one. If you have the ambition to someday lead, you should start changing your attitude now because seriously, nobody would want a leader like you. hehe.

This is the problem with people who assumes too much. They think they are ALWAYS right and smarter than the rest. Well, think again! I don't know what's the ulterior motive of this person. If this person is really concern about everyone, then this person should give what's due and favorable. Unfortunately, it is not the case. I realized that this someone has different faces. I thought this kind of person only exists in movies but I was obviously wrong.

I will never forget the first encounter I had with this person. I almost lost my confidence because of what this someone treated me. Good thing, that didn't stop me. Yet, I challenged myself after what happened. I am not someone who just sits around the corner and pretend nothing happened.

To you, don't be too ambitious. Wait to be recognized. Re-assess yourself and see what needs to be changed. Learn to compartmentalize your feelings. The thing with you is that everything seems too personal. Nah, it shouldn't be. A person, in order to grow should learn to accept weaknesses and strengths. Being PROUD and SELFISH will not get you anywhere. Truth hurts but you will learn from it. Mistakes are our best experiences. Nobody is perfect but if you think you are, then you need a consult. hehe I have no intentions of stepping into other people's lives nor hurt their feelings. But sometimes, we need to stand up and let this people know what they are lacking. If no one will be strong enough to stand, these people will never see their mistakes.

I am not supposed to open this up, but what the heck! I'm pissed. I don't like to be put in this kind of pedestal especially if I have not done anything wrong. But despite this, I am still cool. I just want to let go of this feeling so I could move on.

On the lighter side, I still have training to attend tomorrow. I hope it will be a better day for me because today sucks bigtime!