Happyland...

Less than a month to wait for this event. I'm starting to feel the pressure. And the butterflies in my stomach is not going anywhere very soon!

Freedom

The sound of people that walk pass at my station, the rushing sound of keyboards here and there, the deafening voice of the big boss in the room, and the endless laughter around the office will no longer be heard. Today, I officially declare my freedom. I am free of all the work anxiety I have long endured.

I am happy to be free. But a part of me is also sad because I leave behind the people that I have learned to care. Too bad, I happen to be a victim of emotional and verbal violence. And it's one of the reasons why I don't wanna stay. It is ironic when people say they'd rather be hurt physically than be dragged with degrading words, I completely agree. A wound will heal. But harsh words, it's just too difficult to refute. It ripped off everything I had...

True enough, life is not always a "win-win" situation. We win some, we lose some. In this case, I lost. I'm taking a break from work. I need to be strong again to face another chapter of my career. I live it all up to Him...

A month before Christmas!

Yahoo!!! It's a month long left before Christmas. I just love it, don't you? I am overly excited about the holidays because 1) I'm spending it in Philippines with my family after two years and 2) I'm getting married the day after! Weee! it's like shooting 2 birds with 1 stone, huh! I'm happy...

Last week

Today is the last Monday I'll be spending at work. Stress is slowly turning down. I hope this reaches ZERO in time hehe. I'll miss a lot of people but it's the best way to move on and become a better person. Cant wait!

Thank you...

Lord, it has been days that I'd been feeling very wary and sad. But during those times, I never thought of giving up my faith in you because I know that You will never forsake me. I know that you work things according to your plan. And I take each challenge as a milestone to make our relationship more founded. And today, you healed my wariness instantly. You worked your magic flawlessly. I cannot fathom the happiness I have right now because of the wonders you make in my life, like what you always do. You give me big surprises, bigger than I can imagine.

But I am not forgetting that fact that I am one of your sinful children. I am sorry for adding so much burden to what you already have. But no matter how sinful I could be, I am certain that you still love me unconditionally. My heartfelt gratitude...Love You!

9th year...

It's been 9 long years since my father passed away. And I still feel like it was just yesterday. The feeling of losing someone we love is one (if not the most) excruciating and devastating ever. I went to church to say a li'l prayer for my dad. I know he is in good hands. Missing you in a heartbeat, dad!

Bohol, here we come!

We already made our reservations at Bohol Beach Club for our very much awaited "after-wedding" getaway. Yeah, I don't wanna call it a honeymoon. It's just too cheesy for me hahaha.

Anyways, I've started to make a list of all the things that we need to do when we get there. Thanks to our friends, they suggested to visit E.A.T. Danao, some 2hours drive from Tagbilaran City. We saw their website and oh my, I am so going to try those thrills. Check out their website E.A.T Danao. We'll be in Bohol for 3D/2N. We opted to extend another night but I thought, I wanna see Cebu at night. So we'll be spending overnight in Cebu and splurge with lotsa food and scenic views. Can't wait!

Mouse play

It is really more relaxed and peaceful to work without the bosses around. No nagging and loud voices heard. Haay, it is indeed a soothing Monday for everyone at work hehehe.

Stress overload...

Since this month started, the butterflies in my stomach never left. It seems like my level of stress has gone way high beyond my reach. Work and wedding pressure is everywhere, in my mind and even in my dreams. I guess there's no need to do physical workout to tone my body. The mental stress alone keeps me fit. Arrrgggh! I just wanna scream it out. Hope things will go well, in God's time.

Getting closer

I'm starting to count the days I have left at work. Though counting makes it a little slower. Somehow, a part of me wants to stay but a bigger part of me wants to be completely free. It's the feeling of freedom that emanates more. I believe I deserve a good break after 2 years of hard labor. Hard enough to say that it is really darn tough to be under the supervision of a different nationality. Sometimes, we really cannot avoid criticism or racial discrimination because of which country I am from. And it is impossible to educate every single person that I meet in and outside of work to explain and defend how talented we could be in our own ways. My experience was just harder than I thought.

I am so tempted to go back home and settle for while because I feel like I've had enough of it. But the "challenged" part in me wants to face this head-on. I wish everything goes well.